not happening

having a relationship with someone who i don't love is not happening...
i just can't be more aware that i will never end up with him but i'm still being so flirty.
what the hell am i doing??
acting like a slut is not cool at all...
well, go tell me what i'm thinking deep down my heart and go back to the normal me.

unexpected strait

a super duper severe cyst in my whirlbone,really??!!
couldn't believe it at first, but had to face the fact that i need to accept the surgery.
have been 17days since i got avulsed, never felt so useless in my life.
feel like i'm nothing but a burden to my family.
i'm also afraid of being lame and i'm so worried about not recovering well...
anyway, i have to be optimistic and believe i can recover without any sequelae.

so so depressed

tedious and tough summer of 2012

got quite disappointed by myself recently.

not in a good condition for studying... 

both the weather and my health suck after i had this small party ='(

even my nose allergy attacks~~ so i got a super heavy stuffy nose now...

Ew~~~

Today is the orientation of the Hungarian summer school.
i was sooooo excited when i'm informed that i got the scholarship.
however, not everything is gonna go towards the way you expect.
so sad that i couldn't make it just because my mom doesn't allow me to go.
totally disagree with her dumb opinion on career and future plan.
but there is nothing i could do.
hopefully i can make it next year.

one nice capture when i dropped by the playground.

the sun comes out and the the earth goes on everyday.

tomorrow is another day.

hope i can go through all the irritating crappy things asap.

going to my bed soon.

hope i could sleep well through the swelter night and recover =3

2012.05.28

went to Yeosu Expo on Friday

it was great (bc we paid only 130,000 won for everything including the tickets and transportation fee) but a bit too rushed cuz we had only around 4hours for looking around the whole Expo venue.

got so many things in my mind now after 4days off thanks to korean budda's birthday.

going abroad to get my master degree and see a bigger world is the dream i've been dreaming for all the time.

i have to chase my dream as long as i'm able to do that.

I'm so sure about my target but no idea how i'm gonna turn it into real.

need large amount of money to support that.

gotta try my best to get one scholarship.

2012.05.15

周末去了釜山

在沙滩上睡觉吹海风

真的感觉好惬意

可是回来之后

心里又开始担忧

将来的路

要怎么走

人总要长大

不可能像peter pan那样永远没烦恼

摆在眼前的路

那么不清晰

我想用自己的力量

去走自己的路

不想放弃自己的追求

可是现实和理想却总是那么难以平衡

好吧

我赌一次

如果暑假能有TOP500的实习

那就好好实习+考IELTS

然后大四focus在申请研究生

如果没有

就专心复习考研

顺便考一下IELTS

anyway 英语是很重要的

大四的时候认真复习，外加申请International master degree

好好复习英语

投简历

在回国之前一定要做出最后的决定

然后毫无怨言的坚持下去

不管是哪条路

都会是充满困难

一定要坚持！

April 24

going to EXCO to see how my colleagues work in real soon!
kinda excited to get rid of the office work :)


it's so weird i'm not that tired as expected because got back at 1am yesterday LOL
played pool and drank cocktail with Yizhen&Summer yesterday.uhmm  one big thing i wanna emphsis is... I LOVE CHINA!
met one annoying korean guy in the bar.
he was totally drunk and wanted to walk me back ... scaried :((
fortunately we ran into Martin on our way back.
Martin siii saved my life :P


going to seoul on thursday for malaysia visa.
hope everything goes well :)
wish me good luck HA <3

2012.04.13

Just realized i shouldn't have signed up for the TOPIK test.
Sure i won't pass that because i wasn't ready for that.
i know i have to study,but just not now.
i'm not in a good condition for studying.
study hard,play hard.

it's not my play time
will take it again back in china

anyway,still happy because booked the flight going to malaysia finally!!! :)
it was totally a anfractuosity during the progress .


so...
malaysia i go !!! 
Looking forward to 14th June  <3